Assalamualaikum dan hai guys..

:)

Rasa geli hati pun ada, bila dibaca balik post yang lalu. Nak gelak bab grammar terabur atau sebab hanya parcel yang tidak dihantar? haaa.. mana satu tu?

Semalam, satu hari jadi pelik sebab lepas kes report khidmat penghantaran barang tu, boleh kan tetiba esoknya pun ada parcel datang (hari semalam lah tu). Dengar juga sayup-sayup dari dalam bilik macam ada orang tekan doorbell tu.

Bila dah terlepas tu, kad cinta pun tak lupa nak lekat di pintu. Takut kesilapan berulang, kan malang tak berbau.. hehe.. Siap bagi note, "sudah call tidak diangkat dan tekan lonceng banyak kali!" hehe.. Malas nak layan diknonnn!! haha..

Musykil juga, kotla jadi prank dari dorang kan lepas report baik punya, daaang~ Nama pun dah kena marked! alamat rumah? memang kena marked jugak lah, haha!!

Tapi, I feel something in the future that insyaAllah alamat berbeza.. hehe.. Mohon doa jugaklah kat korang yang terbaca blog ni ke atau entry ni tolong doakan kami dapat rumah yang kami nak, tak macam kami nak pun yang decent house yang berbaloi nak disewa lah.. ok demand kat situ! haha..

10th January, I wish my baby sister will accomplished her missions here in the world also jannah and hereafter. Mission to be a great muslimah solehah. amin.

Ingat lagi waktu my mom struggling as a single parent. Masa tu my mom ada offer kursus wajib untuk kehadiran, macam-macam kursus kan cikgu kena pergi ikut kepakaran masng-masing. So that time takda sapa nak taking care of her to sent to school or to pick her up from school just like that as she went the same school with my mom.

I had to babysit her at my school. haha. No, I'm not bring her to my class either but ada entrepreneur's day that time. So nobody care about it, cause I'm handling a stall only with my friend. We only sell cendol and ABC that was a hit, cause the easy and cheap things also less cost. The most student will buy is satay. But I will not selling it, mahal kot cost dia.. bahan perapan lagi, kos nak sewa taak or else.. haa.. keuntungan ciput, the end of the day, the sales report went out. My stall that actually that nobody wants to participate had the most untung! haha..

Bolehlah.. my baby sister? she just sit and wait for me, if she is hungry, my other sister or brother picked her up to fill in. Ada masa susah juga, zaman sekolah yang agak susah for tujuh beradik like us with eldest still at the college with some kind of financial issues..

Jadi salah satu sebab juga kenapa masuk one of AAAA name.. haha.. you might guess it.. hehe.. it's totally free, from head to toe just your inner stuff. Gitulah ceritanya.. I like doing that kind of job, but I don't have heart to stay among the fighters eceehhh~ haha.. sekarang tinggal dua orang lagi yang masih meneruskan perjuangan. I wish them a good luck on their 2nd class oral. phewwwss~

okla.. terimbas kembali zaman jahiliah pulak.. haha..

ok bye

P.s oh dah musim nak raya cina ni, kedai-kedai suma dah stock up cokelat.. hehe

The other way round~

Salam dan hai,

Rasa macam dah lama tak mencoretkan kisah TTC, eceh.. skema sikit kan. hihi.. Kadang kadang tu rasa juga, patutkah share dengan orang? ke patut simpan sendiri ja? Ada coretan yang ingin saya luahkan disini.

Saya bersyukur apa saja kurnia, rezeki dan nikmat yang Allah Taala telah berikan pada saya yang saya sedar dan tanpa sedar, besar kurniaan tu bila kita sentiasa bersyukur, dan sentiasa ada tanpa putus, Alhamdulillah.

Kekurangan dan kelebihan tu saya cuba dan belajar untuk tidak persoalkan atas sebab ke'Redha'an apa yang saya terima dan Redha Allah Taala atas segala kurnia, nikmat dan rezeki yang diberi kepada umatNya, Subhanallah.

Ada satu masa, encik suami jelaskan pada saya yang kita tak perlu tergesa-gesa, sampai perlu abaikan aurah dan syariat Islam. Sebabnya atas satu peristiwa di mana, waktu saya menjalani rawatan di Hospital kerajaan. Encik suami menemani saya untuk pemeriksaan HSG, ada orang yang tak boleh tahan ada orang yang tahan, tapi kesannya sehari dua lepas tu, T____T

Balik pada kisah enck suami tu, ada seorang kakak dalam lingkungan awal 40-an yang sedang menunggu giliran. Lama juga berusaha untuk menimang cahaya mata tapi belum lagi dikurniakan. Memang sedia berkongsi pengalaman dengan encik suami. Suami saya memang dengan lagak sempoi tapi dalam hati tu, terasa malu juga!

Perbualan disambung dengan soalan doktor yang akan lakukan pemeriksaan, maksud saya doktor lelaki atau perempuan, Islam atau non-Muslim.

" Saya tak kisah dengan doktor mana pun".

Masa tu, I was struggling with myself, should I accept men? Saya di marah oleh Jururawat di bahagian X-ray, atas sebab, saya tak boleh pilih doktor lelaki atau perempuan, di sini pesakit kena terima mana-mana doktor yang telah di-assign-kan.

At last, An Indian woman doctor came with a Chinese woman Radiologist and a Malay woman nurse as assitant.

I was about to cry with that situation, I felt so deeply disappointing with that kind of treatment, and still the facilities does not enough or just don't fit for muslimah patients.

From that moment, I stop my treatment and checkup there. Anyway, we just don't have a right to choose a doctor instead it is a Public Government Hospital. So, kat sini saya tak mahu cerita disadvantages of it, dan perbahasan mengenai hal ni pun masih tiada jalan penyelesaian.

As for myself, as a Muslim, a bit frustrated that I can achieve a dream as a doctor or to be exact an gynecologist. To help others. and I wish that future female doctors would choose gynecology as their major.

Walau macam mana 'desperate' pun we want to have a child, we have follows all the Sunnahs, done loads of jariah tapi we still disobey one and only our aurah, our pride, our husband's pride. Still, just wondering, we want something from Him and think that we have follow all the 'right' things but at the same still disobeying.

I just don't get it. I believe insyaAllah in future. I believe in that way.

Hingga saat ini, saya dan suami masih bersabar dan masih berusaha untuk menimang cahaya mata.

I live the life to the fullest to fulfill hereafter.

InsyaAllah

Burst-ed oven

Salam dan hai,

Mcm mana hari ni? Produktif?

Now it shows around 12 a.m. and still I can't sleep rights away as I took my long nap in the afternoon.

Stress.

Ive been so patience when my oven can get enough for one loaf tin or one 8" round tin where always wait for hours to bake it done. One after one. Still bersabar as the only space and the only way for the cake or muffins or cupcake or pie to be cooked in perfection.

In the end.

Another problems rose again. The thermostat rods are spoiled. Didn't know why it just heating to the low heat. Not heating up to high temp. Sigh.

All my cakes are bantat!

Reported to my husband and he said thay I should ask my in law fo new oven. @,@

Nice.

But rather I should wait to buy my dream freestanding kitchen or just straight away buy the new oven?

And again.. still didn't manage to solve the existed probs with kitchen space.

Headache d. Again...

Still got time to think and decide whether to buy or to wait. I do think my in law will buy it. Huhuhu. Haihhh..

Maybe oven said : "heyy, pls stop using me, I'm old, I don't to be so hot and cold!"

Lol.

That is why the oven is maintaining it temps when using it. Sigh

P.s esok sudah hari kelapan Zulhijjah, marilah kita berpuasa sunat.

♥

I dont know..

Salam dan hai..

its been awhile again that I didnt post on here..

the exciting to write become lesser.. or I dont know how is it.. no tempting to write, eventhough there is a lot of things that I want to share..

for the time being, I missing my husband so badly, and just wish that my classes end it very soon.. sigh

I dont know for probs discussions become bigger.. with no intention to it can be reach when you say in a wrong way to be understand.. or I dont know..

I dont know if we are simply judge without finishing the words.. and I dont know too if we are the one who interpret wrongly..

;( I dont know what to do.. it is awkward by days.. I care because we had close relationship.. and I still dont know what to do..

with all things happens Ive just live in my own world, the words care it doesnt give any impacts towards any persons.

the real thing on article is I dont care, whether I am the origin or else.. by sue its not the solutions..

what made me very sad was a phone call in the morning for warned me but not a call for asking me what I am doing or am I good or else..

I dont know..

I dont want to make me as myself so kesian with this kind of situations.. or I wrote it with all peoples put me aside.. as I dont know.. what else to do..

I am very dissapointed with the phone call again.. and later by now.. its just make my tears dropped without I noticed.. poor me!